Dillion Harper on Oct. 23 @ 5pm PST
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The death of 2016

If you’re following my social media as of late, then you know of some of the many dilemmas 2016 has flung my way.  As I always say, life is 10% what happens to you & 90% in how you react to it. I personally chose to fight back & kick ass!

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Update on my Nonna, she has been moved to a rehabilitation center, which is good news. She is still in tremendous pain and cannot walk but we are all hopeful that being in 24/7 care will help her heal more quickly.

057Most of you that pay attention to the words I write & not just the pretty pictures 😉 (hahaha, lots of dudes don’t bother to read), know by now that I have Hashimotos disease which is an auto immune disease that attacks your thyroid, thus wreaking havoc on your hormones which control EVERYTHING in your body. Mood, skin, hair, weight, depression, lack of sleep, extreme fatigue, fog brain, dizzy spells, inflammation etc etc etc. I work very hard to fight it and not to let it control my life. It certainly effects it, but to rule me…nope, not gonna happen!

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I have been in quite a few car accidents in my day…I dunno what it is? but people just love crashing into my rear ;o) Lol…all of these accidents happened in my teen and early 20s and I really didn’t feel the effects of them until now that I am 30+. I have always had chronic pains that are worse than the average soreness from working out. My back/neck feels like it splinters at times, making it painful to sleep, sit, stand, workout, drive, really everything…BUT I do it all anyway and then some.  I generally have to get my thyroid checked every 2-3 months to make sure the levels are ok and make adjustments if needed. Well the last test, my Dr decided to run a full auto-immune panel because of the every day the pain I was feeling. It has been really hard on me and really puts a damper on how I would like to live my life. So I said, sure, let’s test everything we possibly can because thanks to Obamacare and my premiums going up to $900+/mth plus not covering anything, I would only have insurance until Dec 31st. I expected the tests to ALL come back negative. I already knew how badly stress effects the body and I am unable to process stress in a healthy way at this point. So all of the additional symptoms I had aside from Hashi’s, I chalked up to being over-stressed and under-slept! I really though there was NO way that I would have anything else wrong with me!

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My Dr was out for an emergency but I needed to get all of the results of the many blood tests and MRI’s that I did this month, so I had to see her Physicians assistant, who was awesome and very knowledgeable. We’re going through my blood test results, Hormones were out of wack which was to be expected with all of the stress with my grandmother, a little tweak of supps will help….thyroid levels were low, which required another medicine tweak….then the auto immune panels, Lupus-negative…good, good, Rheumatoid Arthritis-POSITIVE, um hmmm, good, WAIT, WHAT?!  Geez la weez. I did not expect that AT ALL!

My little world started to spin, dizzy from the many questions I had and not really knowing much about RA aside from the fact that it can be debilitating to the point where you are in a wheelchair. FML, really?! The girl who does everything right health wise, who invests so much time and money into being healthy and staying fit? The girl who is SO independent and needs no one else’s help…

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I left the office with an appt to see my Dr next week so that she could go into more depth with a game plan and another appt with a Rheumatologist. I also left feeling pretty sorry for myself. Really upset at how unfair life is. I spoke to my family and a couple of very supportive friends (Taylor:) and started to realize…WAIT JUST A FUCKING SECOND HERE PEOPLE!

I AM ONE STRONG ASS BITCH AND NOTHING AT ALL WILL EVER CHANGE THAT. I am strong, I am a survivor or many horrible experiences and I am much more than just a diagnosis. Am I in a tremendous amount of pain, yes. Could it get worse, yes. Will I ever stop fighting? FUCK NO!

I started to research the holistic approach to dealing & treating RA and although I do have a few major life changes to make in order to combat this, I already do most of it. I eat a mostly organic, anti-inflammation diet with a good balance of protein, healthy fats and healthy carbs. I workout in a balanced way, incorporating many different forms and techniques. I utilize many herbs and supplements to treat my body instead of overloading on a million different medications.

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The number one change I need to make is controlling my stress. I haven’t been able to find a way yet over the years. I think its tougher for me because I work for myself, so if I do not work, I do not earn a paycheck. There are no sick days, no vacation time and I have an irrational fear of being perceived as lazy. There are never times when I just chill out. EVER. So my new game plan to combat this naturally will be to start here. I am going to try to meditate, do yin yoga etc as well as start acupuncture and physical therapy. I will also add new herbs that are specialized to treat RA. Still lots of research to do, but I know that I WILL NOT stop fighting. I WILL be the example and not the rule. Will of course keep you posted on my progress as well. 🙂  So, as the year ends, I stopped feeling sorry for what is unfair in life and started to make a game plan to better my life and myself. We all have struggles, pains, heartache…but pushing through and still finding ways to be positive and lift others up around you is what makes your life.  This isn’t going to end me, just push me to a new beginning. A beginning to care about myself more, stress less. Hopeful to find more happiness and strength.

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So my motto in 2017…LIFE GOES ON, Time to work! Have a Happy New Year everyone! Thank you for your continued support and love, know that I have people thinking of me makes me feel very blessed! xxoo

Brianna


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